After a close family friend took her own life, he describes the stability in his life being shaken up. “My heart began to harden. I didn’t know that I should be sharing with people what was actually happening to me.”
He began to live a double life. He would live one way at church while continuing to be on the worship team, but then felt as if there was a secret life he was living at home and school. Jesse stopped attending church and began trying things his own way. By the end of his senior year, he fell into a partying lifestyle and was hanging out with a different crowd. “I knew this wasn’t right, but at the time, that is what I wanted to do.”
After months of living a lifestyle of parties, drugs, and alcohol; Jesse remembers thinking one day at work, I want to live. I can’t continue to do what I’m doing.
He tried to make things better, but realized he was powerless, so he turned back to God. He began to get in the Word, started praying again, and began to reconnect with friends from Graceway.
“I had to learn how to trust people again.” Some lessons came from trial and error, and some of this came gaining healing after seeking counseling. Knowing that leaders in the church had taken steps to become healthier themselves was huge for Jesse.
Now, Jesse serves on our Graceway staff as the Worship Coordinator. “I’m doing what God told me I need to be doing,” he says. Jesse’s passion for music is evident when you see him on stage each week, he has a wonderful gift to lead people in worship and we are thankful he is a part of our Graceway team.